I love this kiddo so much.
Last night was a very sad evening.
What was supposed to be a fun time ended with our hearts bruised, heavy, and sad.
Autism aggression is a real thing.
It can be a very scary thing.
It needs to be talked about.
Sometimes it comes on so fast, sometimes you can’t make it better or help make sense of things until it is over.
Sometimes things break and shatter, and nothing feels okay. It can be heartbreaking. The severity of it can be so much that you pray it doesn’t end in a wreck or a hospital visit.
I know we are not the only family dealing with this.
The only thing you can do is pick yourself back up, work and learn from mistakes, and try, try again.
You pray next time it will be just a little less scary.
For Eli, working on the thing that triggered the aggressive behavior and desensitize him from it, along with a LOT of conversations and open communication is the only way to help move past to make sure it hopefully doesn’t happen again.
Eli’s aggression comes from lack of communication, an anxiety disorder, and anger that flares up very quickly that makes him want to attack.
We will always work on these things every single day, giving him the tools to calm himself and express himself in a more appropriate manner.
Eli has come so far. Even though his aggressive attacks might be farther apart, the fact that he is getting bigger, makes it much more destructive.
Communicating by the use of aggression is never okay. I know Eli is capable of learning to verbally communicate and work on not getting to that “seeing red” point.
I refuse to give up or believe that he can’t overcome this. I believe he can.